January 25, 2003

disconcerting dreams

So, last night I had a second dream in just as many weeks that one of my close friends hates me. Up in Tahoe, I had this dream that Emily hated me and that she was only hanging out with me because her mother had forced us together in the hopes that we would start dating (which actually has a kernel of truth). Last night, Erica was the source of distress. Here’s how the dream went down…

Michele calls me out of the blue sounding hesitant. After a while of heming and hahing, she tells me that Erica has just sent out a mass e-mail to all of our friends ranting about what an incredible bitch I am. There isn’t any incident detailed in the letter that has sparked this hatred. It appears that Erica has simply waited until this moment to finally unleash all of the anger that she has been holding against me for years and years. While I’m still on the phone with Michele, Erica calls on the other line to confirm everything has Michele has told me. She completely bitches me out with no apparent intention beyond making me miserable. I spend the rest of the dream depressed and bewildered.

Now, the thing that is crazy about these dreams is that I NEVER DREAM. And, when I do have fragments of dreams, they are distant and abstract. However, these “all of your friends hate you” dreams are realistic and vivid. I woke up this morning actually thinking that Erica hated me.

I ask you, my friends, what the fuck is up with that shit?

PS – Please do not reply in jest with “Erica actually does hate you and she just hasn’t told you yet,” or I'm likely to kick your ass.

Posted by j*2the*olie at January 25, 2003 12:41 PM



Posted by: michele on January 25, 2003 01:13 PM

I think that it's just because you don't know what to do with the fact that we love you tons. Like, you can't actually believe how much we love you so you imagine that somewhere, hidden deep inside, there lie ill feelings towards you.
tee hee

Posted by: Emily on January 25, 2003 09:21 PM

oh man. it makes me sad that my first inclination was in fact towards gentle mockery through LYING to you. but you forestalled me you clever thing.

who could hate you? you are the bee's knees.

Posted by: didofoot on January 25, 2003 10:02 PM

awe, you goyls are so darn adorable. =)

Posted by: Jolie on January 26, 2003 01:58 AM


Posted by: jason on January 26, 2003 04:37 PM